14 weeks

I am 14 weeks pregnant now. Wow that has flown by and that's it ? I saw dr Landry for the first 10 weeks saw they baby for several ultrasounds each time he/she had a wonderful strong heartbeat.  I have a Doppler at home I often play with he/she is starting to be a little butt and run from me but I love hearing the heartbeat. I don't know what with me 14 weeks you would think the idea of the fact I'm Pregnant and going to have little squishy baby hold in 6 months would have sunk in, but it hasn't. After having Emmaleigh I put on a bunch a weight and this last yr or so I finally lost it from

167 to 125. I'm about 127 now so not too much weigh on but I do have a belly and I kinda feel the whole pregnant thing in in my head. I know it's silly you found a heart beat you seem your baby on a ultrasound. I just feel like I'm back at looking like I did in 2010 when I was my biggest. I'm trying to just go with it cause I know it's real ! I got a play pen (green) and swing (green) and and changing table. I've also found a few unisex outfits including my kids pumpkin outfit (12 months) and I'm going to look at a dresser that need to be redone tomorrow !

I've been thinking a lot about the baby's birth. I know I have a ton of time I'm not even half way though, but I need to make my change now. I went to doctor Landry for 10 weeks loved him and his staff, but I hear of so many women who love their doctor until the delivery room she already mentioned a cerclage. Emmaleigh was born at 32 weeks, but I believe with my heart she was born then cause she was in trouble and I trust in my body and god more than I trust in doctors. Had I had a cerclage with her she would have been still born. So now my choices are stay with an OB, go with a CNM and LM or have a doula. The difference is..... and OB I had an OB with Emma it was horrible meds pushed on my no one listen to me I cried so much and I feel They weren't paying attention to me or what I was saying. If they had they may have realized she was in trouble, but they also would have c section her cause that what doctor do. They don't try anything. They threatened a c section on my twice for now following the rules. They don't realize I hired them not they other way around but they play the insurance game and scare you about your baby heath or having CPS come in take your child cause your different. I really don't want to so that again. I did have an awesome homebirth with zack it was at my midwifes house due to Katrina and Alex (5 yrs old) Cam (4 yrs old ) and izzy ( 23 and half months) where all on side of the tub. I just can't afford one this time. Another option is Hire my old midwife as a doula, but she isn't doing midwifery anymore. The issue I have with that is Alex is now 13 and Cam is 12. On top of that I have Izzy, Emma and Zack who are almost 10, almost 8 and almost 6. Plus 3 cats and keeping the house clean for guest is a constant battle and if I let it go for a few days it looks like a hurricane hit it. When I have company come over I usually know there coming. This baby won't call ahead of time. It's like planning for a party you have no idea when it happening. I truly don't believe I will have another preemie, but Emma birth was devastating. Coming home to a birth kit I would never use . From the time you get pregnant you dream of the birth. I'm very happy she was born heathy and it was about her life but the birth I had planned was something I lost and it was hard to over come that. plus I've never done anything like that before and applying for the birth certificate and getting the baby on the insurance and being able to take the baby to the ped with in the first few days of birth. I'm not too far from a hospital but I don't know how the hospital would treat me come in as an UA homebirth and the risk of them calling CPS and I have more than this baby to worry about 5 other kids over a risky birth just to get a homebirth 6 years later I'm kinda over it all I want the most stress free birth I can get. I still want a natural birth and I want to nurse the baby as soon as he or she is born. I don't want an IV but I'll settle for a hep lock. I don't want to be tied to a bed I want limited monitorin. I was the option of maybe Izzy coming to the birth if she wants to. I do not do not want to be bugged about pain meds. I want to video and or photo the birth and labor. I want delayed cord clapping as well placenta encapsulation. I don't want vitamin K or eye drops. I don't want the baby bathe until I ask for it. If it's a boy no circumcision. Isabella was born with a CNM . The CNM was with me from active labor on very sweet we talked though labor and a wonderful quite birth. I found out about 25 miles from me I went to meet her last Monday. Loved her. The office not so much. It was very noisy.... Felt like a bad part of town don't know how to explain it. I'm hoping when I tour the hospital it doesn't reflect the office. There is 5 midwifes there also a bunch of Ob if I need one. So I have a appointment with her June 24th. I'm getting my 3d ultrasound June 27th, but I won't know the gender till July 14th when we do our gender reveal party. I was also have my Anatomy ultrasound with the midwife after the reveal party. 

So I'm 14 weeks didn't have much morning sickness this pregnancy. Maybe a handful of times and maybe it was due to what I are 2 pickles weren't the best idea. I'm feeling better. Still tired but getting better. I'm feeling lots of ligament pain ouch ! And my boobs double ouch! Other than that I really don't feel Pregnant Except at night. I order  pregnancy pillow and that should help with that.

 

 Summer is now here so I'm hoping now I'm in the 2nd trimester will fly just not too fast cause I want to enjoy the pregnancy and summer with my kids. I'm still undecided about a few things specially cloth diapering. I do feel strongly about nursing and the birth. I also am still playing the what is it game!! Everyone says it go to be a girl. I would love a girl 3 boys 3 girls, how ever it is what it is I want a healthy, smart, lovable child and I believe it's a boy so much I hvae HIS name picked out and nothing for a girl Mattheus Ayden we will call him Matt. Love it !!! my other boys are Alexander Christopher "Alex" Cameron Nicholas "Cam" Zackariah Elijah "Zack" and the girls are Isabella Lauryn "Izzy or Bella" and Emmaleigh Claire "Emma" so if I he is a little boy I'll have Alex, Cam, Zack, & Matt and the girls will still be Bella & Emma :)

  Here a fun pic from week 13 and half along with my weekly shots.

11 week update

It's been a while since I updated. I was only 7 weeks. I'm now 11 weeks pregnant. The baby is the size of a plum and 2.5 inches long. I got sick for a bit this pregnancy and it quickly went away only hit me every now and again. I had my first Ultrasound at 6 weeks another at 8 weeks and 10 weeks. The baby had a good strong heartbeat.

I've been wanting to shop. It's very hard not knowing the Gender of the baby. I have a STRONG feeling it's a BOY !  I would love a GIRL, most of my friends have said It's going to be a girl and I will have 3 and 3. I don't see it... I had 2 boys back to back but since then it's been Girl Boy Girl so it's time for another Boy ! I just don't feel Girl most Girl names feel blah to me cause I don't believe it. I've had 3 boys dreams back to back I have had a few girl dreams since I've been sure it's a boy. I think it just to keep me guessing. I had a Perfect name for our son. We have Alexander Christopher, Cameron Nicholas, & Zackariah Elijah and if this one is a boy he will me Mattheus Ayden. We Call our Boys Alex, Cam, & Zack we will call Mattheus Matt. I think it fits with our other sons names. We are planning to do a Gender reveal party. I will find out with everyone who comes to the party, My friend will come to the ultrasound with me and she will find out and let everyone know what the baby is in a special way. I'm thinking sometime in July. I have to make an appointment for the 3d ultrasound and have the invites ready to go and if baby shows the goods the invites go out if not change them for 2 weeks after the next appointment (they do it free of charge for a 2nd peak) I read online some sights says 14 weeks some says 17 weeks some day not before 18 weeks. I want to know NOW !!!! but I also don't want to be told girl when I know it's a boy cause it just too soon. I'm thinking 17 weeks should be save and 3d places seem to have better stuff. I'm 11 weeks so that is 6 weeks from now yay !!! excited !!! I can't wait to shop I have bought a green swing and a changing table but I saw the cutest boy shoes but since I don't know if it a boy I can't buy them. I can't wait !!

I been having fun with the Doppler. looking for the baby's Heartbeat !! Although baby was being a pain. I like to video the heartbeat with my phone when I find it the other day as soon as I grabbed the phone I lost the baby. I gave them then today I looked for an hour couldn't find the baby anywhere !! It hasn't been registering i just had to listen for the sound. I gave up look a nap and woke up and was starting to worry cause I still couldn't find it and then I found and it registered 138 !!! total boy heartrate but so excited to hear him music to my ears.

I also have been thinking about my past births and what is best for this baby !  Right before my 19th birthday I found out I was pregnant my due date was April 4 2000 based on my LMP ultrasound wasn't done until mid preg and several were done due to a struggle with repeat UTI they showed due dates in march but doc didn't change the due dates in February around 32/33 weeks I started having labor pains and was hospitalized to stop labor and on February 29 at 35 weeks my water broke and I gave birth to a 6lbs 15oz baby boy perfectly healthy despite is early arrival. We have always questioned the dates with him. He is now 13. Well I got pregnant again after only one cycle but that was a struggle when my period didn't come a month after the last I started testing and it was negative ... I did weekly test from then till 10 weeks pregnant when it finally showed up positive at 13 weeks ultrasound showed due date of April 16th my period it should have been April 7th 2001 not too off no idea why it was negative for so long and on march 29th at 37 weeks I went in and had my water broken and my 2nd son was born 6lbs 4 oz. I had an epidural for both boys. In February 2003I found out I was pregnant for a 3rd time I was due with a little girl on oct 25th this time I decided to take a natural route and found a CNM midwife who would delivery me in a hospital with a water birth and at 38 weeks my daughter was Born on oct 10th she weighed 6lbs 13oz and I had her drug free! After her birth I had an IUD put in but despite that in 2005 we conceived again I went back to the midwife we tried to find the IUD couldn't I had many ultrasound to try and find it and she had the doctor do them and in the first ultrasound the doctor on call told me I was having a miscarriage and wanted me to have a DNC I told her no. A week later my baby had a heartbeat. When I was 15 weeks pregnant my midwife told me she was leaving the practice and I had to find someone else for my care I looked into a home birth couldn't afford it so I found another CNM. I live in Louisiana and in 2005 Katrina hit and I lost my midwife but found another who did a homebirth it for a discount rate and we had our 3rd son at the midwives house ( ours was still under water) I got pregnant again in 2007 planned a home birth towards the end I starting having issues with my gallbladder it needed to be removed I was having lots of attacks and on aug 18th at 32 weeks due to all the attacks (we believe) my water broke and a home birth was no longer an option and they did some ultrasound said they couldn't see much due to my water level. They wanted to hold her in for 6 weeks, but the next day on August 19th 2007 I gave birth to a 3lbs 8oz baby girl who is now 5 yrs old and healthy for the most part she was born hugging her placenta and Almost was still born. I fought the doctors on having her sooner rather than later cause I believe in trusting my body. My midwife who delivered my son at her house is no longer doing midwifery  she only acts as a doula and we could do a unassisted home birth but there lots of legal stuff that worry me on that plus its a lot of before prep it's like being ready for a party but not knowing the date and being in labor I can't afford another LM home birth plus with it being 6 yrs between kids I'm buying everything myself and now we have cats and cat hair is kinda everywhere and I wouldn't want it to get in my girlie parts during labor it fine after I can lay the baby on a blanket or something but the sofa our bed ect.... So I did find a group of midwives about 35 mins away which isn't bad I drove an hour to midwives house to have our 3rd son. So I've seen an OB so far and these midwives have OB's that work with them so far everything is great I've had 3 ultrasound baby is growing perfectly I can pick up baby on the Doppler at home now and I have an app on may 27th to meet one of the midwives I'm a little worried delivery in the hospital again I'm a little strange no drugs I would love another water birth guessing I make it to term I want delayed cord clamping and I want to take my placenta home and Encapsulate it no eye drops or shots for baby no bath for baby either ! It's just what I do ! I also want to breast-feed as soon as baby is born and no cirm if baby is a boy just my thing no judgment on mama who do things different than me I'm just a little different. I'm hoping things work out with the midwifes !!

 So I guess That is about it. I'm 11 weeks been taking pictures weekly and I think I lost some bloat but I'm still in shock I can't believe I'm pregnant and I'm going to have a baby my youngest is almost 6 and my oldest is 13. my kids are between 13 months and 2.5 yrs apart so this is strange after all this time to have a little baby again !! sometimes I feel like it's a dream and then I have to pee. I'm so happy and honestly I just want a wonderful smart happy and healthy little baby !!!I feel so blessed and Lucky !!

7 weeks

 

I'm now 7 weeks pregnant. My belly has been growing since I found out I was pregnant. I haven't felt pregnant at first no sickness nothing !!! A few days ago it started with a loss of Appetite. I haven't been able to eat much with out feeling like I over ate and feeling sick. It Walmart last week I got sick, but I have been feeling boy all long. I swore Walmart was due to the smell in there. Last night I had to have a snowball and that didn't stay down either !!! Today Zack and Emma had a tee ball game and I am the coach midway though the game I had to have someone sand in and I got sick again. I've been needing daily naps so I had a smoothie that stayed down and I came home had my nap wanted a poboy for dinner. Ate in went to the bathroom as I was getting ready for bed tonight and I'm sick yet again. I still kinda feel boy but it making me wonder now since I don't really have morning sickness just after I eat sickness but come this summer we will find out ! I'm planning a gender Reveal party. We will have a friend find out and help us get balloons or a cake In pink or blue and reveal to us and everyone else if our baby is a boy or girl ! Names are hard and up in the air. 

 

NOT a April Fools Joke !!

On April 1st 2013 We Announced we are Pregnant with baby #6 !!! This is what the Announcement read "We'll I have a announcement to make. I am pregnant with baby #6 ! Due to Arrive sometime in November. I hope you all can be supportive and be happy for us. I will not tolerate negativity or questioning I birth control plans. We are happy to announce that we are having baby #6 Post your congratulations below other wise there an unfriend button. I would love to have an many people who want to be happy for the birth of this baby in our lives. I can't wait for the fun to begin with the excitement of a new life !!" I was pretty pleased with the response. over 100 congrats with happy friends and family ready to watch us become parents again. I also told our five children about the baby. A Little about them Alexander is 13 years old with the Attitude that comes with the teen years. Cameron is 12 years old and special needs due to PDD-NOS and very lovable. Isabella is 9 and very fun and into sports and a good student. Zackariah is 7 and Emmaleigh is 5 and they are like twins a hand full but totally fun !!! I stood in the front of the living room with 5 little pairs of eyes on me with a look of what say what you have to say so we can go play. I announced we would have a new baby. Zackariah screamed  "Yay a baby chicken" we all laughed and I said it's a human baby ! he said "Yay a human baby chicken" We laughed and the nick name "chicken" was born. My oldest asked if we had enough kids. What can I say Teenagers. The rest were thrilled !!!! We had Blood work done with a Hcg at 11,775 so I'm nice and pregnant. Two day later on April 3rd we had a ultrasound and Defiantly not an April fools joke we  are pregnant and got a Heart beat of 178 bpm !!!! Nice Dark lines on my pregnancy test, High HCG and a Heartbeat Not an april fools joke. You may think 6 kids is a lot, but my husband and I have a strong bond and we are thrilled with any blessing God wants to throw our way. Children or anything else for that matter. We are blessed and we know he has plans for our lives as well as "chicken" 's life.